why why and why ?

i always thinking why i always fall in love w/ wrong guy & wrong time. um ya i'd like to apologize cause talkin' bout love again. first i always in love w/ men who older then me, and i always can't reach them ! cause he's so popular, handsome, exist, and i just an ordinary people who not really exist, rich, and beautiful. but i thinked we must to fall in love w/ the wrong guy before we meet our soulmate. isn't ? my love life is complicated rite na'. why ? because now i'm in love w/ mr popular|handsome|rich|exist|funny and also playboy, damn isn't ? and i abiously can't reach him ! suck hah ? he used to call me sweaty, but i don't believe him. and sometime i stand under the shower to thinked bout him either my love life. if i can sing 1 song i'll sing "i want to be yours rite now nana" because i really love you and care and want to be your. but i thinked that's really imposible, isn't ? i know people always said 'there's nothing imposible in this world' but we can't make someone who abiously not love us til' love us, right ? my current mood is now sad because i can't be yours