Goodbye is too hard for me

i'm feeling exactly just like the title above. being up and down by relationship things is sucks. like, you don't know what to do when you stuck with your date. stuck in the middle of feeling love and bored. and sometimes, you just don't think clearly when you made a decision.

let someone in into your life isn't as easy as i might thought. it's hard especially when you already like the person. confuse to choose which one is brighter and happier, past or future. stuck in the middle of your lifetime

i know people always say "don't look back, just be worry about your future". saying is easy, but doing is hard. i know i've been dating with someone else after i broke up with you. but it still hard to know that i can't forget you. it's been 7 months and i still wondering what you're doing.

i've promised to my self not to think about you anymore. but i just can't. maybe it just me, or you're the one who've been really amazing ? and perhaps, from now on i can keep moving forward and continuing my life as i try to erase my love. saying goodbye is hard, but whether i like it or not, i still have to say goodbye. you can't say hello without saying goodbye. so, i will say goodbye to you as soon as i can. but maybe not now, cause you know, i still love you XVII