Vacuous thought

"Don't you just tired ?" | "tired of what ?" | "making choices. Choose something. Sacrificing things. Regretting your decisions." | "me ? All the time. But honey, what's life without those things ?"

Maybe.... Just maybe.... If i met you sooner, she won't have you.

Silly thought. And it gets too silly until it always stays in my mind. And here i am in the middle of midnight. Alone. And maybe also lonely. What's pathetic in life is to meet someone who's very meaningful to us, just to show us how vacuous our life is without them. Until one day... You just can't let them go. And maybe... That's indeed what just happened to me. He's gone. Leaving me. With her. And this is not the first one. No, i'm not blaming him for my vacuous thought. It's justba matter of time. Yes, time. Time has being not fair, at least for me. It's not fair how time goes by fastly for him. But time never seems to tick, even a second, for me. My clock still alleging at the time when we were together. Proudly stated that we're happy, together. And here i am. Standing alone, writing pathetic post about you, in the middle of the night, in the middle of my exam week. It because you left me so many unanswered questions. And unspoken questions. The strongest one is "why did you gave up on me ?"

And if love appears just to hurt you and disappoint you, then why would it exists ?

P.S: Again - Bruno Mars ft Natasha Bedingfield. And oh, you owe me second chances, yes, like the one you gave to her.