when you're gone...

and yup, for those who're following me at my twitter... i've lost my phone. feeling like an idiot lately, i just can count on my laptop and my internet connection to follow the current updates. guuhhhhhhh :L. i bought that hp 6 months ago, and now.... it's gone :"( i'm gonna miss you, like, A LOT!

it feels like harder than losing a boyfriend, haha LOL. but nah, that's true!. my works, my relative (work and family and friends) numbers are there.... i haven't back it up yet :( and also, my bbm :( it's like.... the most important thing! i contact everyone via my bbm.

Ok, enough with pathetic words... i post this just want to let you know that i'm no longer using my phone number and my pin. so, if someone reply or contact you via my bbm or number, it's not me. and, oh, just delete it!

trying to let it go, but i just can't. just, wish me luck.

took this picture a day before it's gone, goodbye, lovely<3

Grandma's Funeral

Went to Jogja on my weekend to attend my Grandma's funeral. My dearest Grandmother has just passed away on Friday. I love her so much. She treated me like her own daughter. She took care of me when my parents went to Makkah. We spreads love everywhere. We yelled at each other. We shared everything together. And most importantly, she took care of me very great. It's time for me to let her go, no matter what it costs. It's time for her to go back to my Grandpa. Ma', you made me realize that nothing's forever. And everything's will go when it's about time for them to go. Letting go someone that really matter to you is hard. Everyone knows it. Ma', distance matter to me, but i'll try to let you go, or maybe i just did it. Wherever you are Ma', you'll always be my Grandma, and our love for you will never change.

"Bilakah kau bersedih bila ku menangis

kan ku hapus tangis ku asalkan kau bahagia

dan bilakah, kini kau telah di sisi-Nya

kuharap disana, kau tetap selalu tersenyum ceria"

my Grandma's grave

my mom and my grandma

safely landed at Yogyakarta

the final goodbye to you

we love you our king in pop music ! we always love you even you not here anymore ! i watched the ceremony farewell for MJ, hufff why you gone so fast ? i don't even see you face. but i love you boy ! the ceremony was so awesome, so many people in this world came to says farewell (the final ya) to him . to see the history to see the legend !

his daughter, paris jackson

but we all have to dead, right ? his a human too, right ?

"maybe now ,michael, they will leave you alone,"marlon jackson

"Ever since I was born, daddy has been the best father you could ever imagine, and i just want to say that i love him so much,"paris jackson

goodbye may you rest in peace..........