Just, Gently Say It

rough time. you know that moment when you just went melancholy for days just because someone. someone who might never put you in his mind. someone who don't even bother to realize your existences. been wondering, how can you cry over someone that doesn't even care bout you ? that doesn't want you in his life. that wasted you. someone who play you around. who say that he loves you but then leave tomorrow morning. someone who play sweet but then tell his friends that nothing happens between you two. someone who don't even get the guts to say that it all over. how can ?

it's amazing how someone's feeling could turn 180 degrees around just in a night. it's amazing how boys could play at girls but still act innocently sweet. it's amazing how some men treats girls correctly, while the rest are just bastards. this whole things makes me wonder, thinking bout how we used to be before we drown into this.

it's amazing how you treat someone so badly after a break-up. it's kinda funny how i used(or i thought i was) to be your special one, and now i'm nothing to you. i don't ask much, i just ask you to gently say that it's all over. so i don't have to wait anymore. so i don't have to hang on on this mirage relationship. so that i can say to my friends that you're an ex-lover, that you're just someone who i used to love, but clearly i was just a fool.

i wanted to call you jerk. i just don't have the guts. i wanted to slap you in the face and stab you so you know hurt it is. i wanted to hate you. but i guess i'm just a little chicken who still hiding behind its egg, afraid to face the new world. all i wanted is for you to realize that i'm still hanging to the same bullshit you told me yesterday. that i'm still believe in our fairy tale. that i'm still thinking that you're the one. but i guess... you were and will never realize that. so please, i ask you. please, gently tell me where this relationship will end up. just, gently tell me what you want, and i will sincerely accept. whether it's sweet or bitter. i'm ready for the consequences.

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