Showing posts with label feeling. Show all posts
Showing posts with label feeling. Show all posts

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Just, Gently Say It

rough time. you know that moment when you just went melancholy for days just because someone. someone who might never put you in his mind. someone who don't even bother to realize your existences. been wondering, how can you cry over someone that doesn't even care bout you ? that doesn't want you in his life. that wasted you. someone who play you around. who say that he loves you but then leave tomorrow morning. someone who play sweet but then tell his friends that nothing happens between you two. someone who don't even get the guts to say that it all over. how can ?

it's amazing how someone's feeling could turn 180 degrees around just in a night. it's amazing how boys could play at girls but still act innocently sweet. it's amazing how some men treats girls correctly, while the rest are just bastards. this whole things makes me wonder, thinking bout how we used to be before we drown into this.

it's amazing how you treat someone so badly after a break-up. it's kinda funny how i used(or i thought i was) to be your special one, and now i'm nothing to you. i don't ask much, i just ask you to gently say that it's all over. so i don't have to wait anymore. so i don't have to hang on on this mirage relationship. so that i can say to my friends that you're an ex-lover, that you're just someone who i used to love, but clearly i was just a fool.

i wanted to call you jerk. i just don't have the guts. i wanted to slap you in the face and stab you so you know hurt it is. i wanted to hate you. but i guess i'm just a little chicken who still hiding behind its egg, afraid to face the new world. all i wanted is for you to realize that i'm still hanging to the same bullshit you told me yesterday. that i'm still believe in our fairy tale. that i'm still thinking that you're the one. but i guess... you were and will never realize that. so please, i ask you. please, gently tell me where this relationship will end up. just, gently tell me what you want, and i will sincerely accept. whether it's sweet or bitter. i'm ready for the consequences.









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Friday, August 7, 2009

how much i love you, esquro ...


i love you with all my hearted, not like her who just love you only half hearted. although I do not know what is the meaning of love, but I feel it inside my heart. Love is pain when i saw you with her. happy if i see your beautiful smile and be near me. and tender if I should forget you. I feel tender and sore resistance that this does not have an enemy than to see you smiling, happy. even though sometimes to see you smile I need a very long struggle. and to see you smile I must hold tender, because her may be the women who can make you laugh and smile as happy at this time. need of love, not like you turn paper. I know sometimes I am selfish, I can not see you with her. but I try to be more mature, to be able to smile for the happiness with you. even though sometimes I do not hold the power of my tears down my cheeks wet. I just want you to remember to our beautiful time, when you laugh with me, when you told me about you little secret

I want you happy with her. and if you're not happy with her come to me. I can probably makes you laugh and i can make it to the size of the forget her. I just do not want to see you keep feeling like I am holding acute the tender . I know how to withstand pain the tender, then ... let me feel that themselves. just let me know how it pain. that you have to do is smile,because for me is able to forget the feeling of tender. acute sense of who you arise time with her. I sometimes think "why you chose her? why not me? because she's more prettier than i am and i am less beautiful? less I care? I love you more of her on" but I realize that all there is time, where you have time with me and where you have time with her, together and at the time that you may be more like herself than I am. love can not be forced.because love arise by itself. I am crying, smiling, happy, sad, angry, tired and also confused because of the love you give to me. I've read my friend notes about love , it said ' now I know why God only gave us one heart, because our other hearts is in our part of the soul. therefore we must find our hearts that one again '. I do not know if my heart that one is on your heart or in the heart of others. but i believe that is only now that you can make me smiled sincerely. I wept tears remember you but I also smile when remembering you. you may recognize me as strong girl who can not cry, I cry, I can only because of you !. I know that must be doing heart that is searching for one more. find a new love when my love indeed not in yourself. and I realize love do not need to have. I smile when you see a smile (albeit with even though) even if it is heavy. I am happy to see you with him if that is bliss your forever. I do not ask for more I just want you remember me. thank you for all that you have given to me, love and grief i confess is my big lesson . I wish you remember me as the girl who can makes you smile. even though you do not know what i feel but I know that you will never be able to reply to what i feel right na'. despite feeling too heavy to resistance by my self, but it is my decision, so that you can still smile. I just want to thank you for all that you gave to me. thanks for the smile you gave to me. thanks for your words you stare at me. I will probably miss you and that is definitely sure that I always love you, wherever and whenever you are. give me memories that are very meaningful, one of the reminded i always. I love you forever, my boy!


->indonesia


aku mencintaimu dengan setulus hatiku, tidak seperti dia yang hanya mencintaimu setengah hati. meski aku tak tahu apa arti cinta itu, tapi aku merasakannya. cinta itu sakit saat nelihat kaubersamanya. indah jika melihat kau tersenyum dan berada di dekat ku. dan perih jika aku harus melupakan kamu. tapi rasa perih dan sakit yang kutahan ini tidak ada saingannya bila dibandingkan melihat kau tersenyum, bahagia. walau kadang untuk melihat mu tersenyum aku butuh perjuangan yang sangat panjang. dan untuk melihat kau tersenyum pun itu aku harus menahan perih, karna mungkin dialah wanita yang bisa membuat mu tersenyum tertawa dan bahagia seperti saat ini. cinta butuh pengorbanan, tak seperti kau membalik kertas. aku tahu kadang aku egois, aku tak bisa melihat kau bersamanya. tapi ku coba untuk menjadi lebih dewasa, untuk bisa tersenyum demi kebahagiaan kamu dengannya. walau kadang aku tidak kuasa menahan air mata ku yang turun membasahi pipi ku. aku hanya ingin kau mengingat saat-saat indah kita, saat kau tertawa bersamaku, saat kau bercerita kepadaku tentang rahasia kecilmu

aku ingin kau bahagia bersamanya. dan jika kau tak bahagia bersamanya datanglah kepadaku. mungkin aku bisa membuatmu tertawa dan bisa membuat mu perlahan melupakannya dengan besarnya cintaku kepadamu. aku hanya tak ingin melihat mu menahan rasa perih seperti aku menahan perihnya itu. aku tahu betapa perihnya menahan rasa sakit itu, maka... biarlah aku yang merasakannya sendiri. biarlah hanya aku yang tahu betapa perihnya rasa sakit itu. yang kau harus lakukan hanya tersenyum , karna itu mampu membuatku melupakan rasa perih itu. rasa perih yang kau timbulkan saat bersamanya. kadang aku berfikir "kenapa kau memilihnya ? kenapa bukan aku ? apa karna aku kurang cantik ? aku kurang perhatian ? aku lebih mencintaimu dari pada dia" tapi aku sadar semua itu ada saatnya, ada saat dimana kau bersama ku dan ada saat dimana kau bersamanya, dan pada saat berasama itu mungkin kau lebih menyukai dirinya dibanding aku. cinta tak bisa dipaksakan. karna cinta timbul dengan sendirinya. aku menangis, tersenyum, bahagia, sedih, marah, dan lelah pun karena cinta yang kau beri kepadaku. aku pernah membaca notes temanku berbunyi 'sekarang aku tahu kenapa tuhan hanya memberi kita satu hati, karena hati yang satu lagi ada di belahan jiwa kita. maka dari itu kita harus mencari hati kita yang satu lagi' . aku tak tahu apakah hati ku yang satu lagi berada pada hatimu atau pada hati orang lain. tapi yang kuyakini sekarang hanyalah bahwa kau lah yang bisa membuatku tersenyum tulus. air mata ku menangis mengingat mu tapi aku juga tersenyum saat mengingatmu. mungkin kau menganggapku gadis kuat yang tidak bisa menangis, ya aku hanya bisa menangis karna kau. aku tahu yang harus kulakukan adalah mencari hatiku yang satu lagi. mencari cinta baru bila cintaku memanglah bukan di dirimu. dan aku sadar cinta tak harus memiliki. aku tersenyum bila melihat mu tersenyum (walau meski bersamanya) walau berat. aku bahagia melihat mu bersamanya jika itu adalah kebahagiaan sejatimu. aku tak meminta lebih aku hanya ingin kau mengingat ku. terima kasih atas semua yang telah kau beri kepadaku, suka dan duka kuakui itu menjadi pelajaran terbesarku. aku ingin kau mengingat ku sebagai gadis yang pernah membuatmu tersenyum. walau kau tak tahu apa yang kurasakan tapi aku tahu bahwa kau tak akan pernah bisa membalas apa yang kurasa. walau rasa iuni terlalu berat untuk kutahan seorang diri, tapi itu adalah keputusan ku, agar kau tetap bisa tersenyum. aku hanya ingin berterima kasih atas semua yang kau berikan kepadaku. terima kasih atas senyum yang kau berikan padaku. terima kasih atas kata-kata dan rayuanmu saat kau menatap ku. mungkin aku akan merindukan mu itu pasti dan yang pasti bahwa aku akan selalu mencintaimu, di manapun kau berada dan kapanpun. kenangan yang kau beri sangat berarti, satu dari bagian yang akan ku kenang selalu. aku cinta kamu selamanya, my boy !

one sentence ---> love does not have a mean you just can to feel it, but you can not describe love !, because love have all the feel that we never imagine !
satu kalimat ---> cinta tdk mempunyai arti, ia hanya dapat kau rasakan tapi kau tak bisa mendeskripsikannya. karna cinta mempunyai semua perasaan yg tak pernah kita rasakan sebelumnya



always be yoursss, anwip

Thursday, June 11, 2009

yesterday&today was a loooong day

oke so guys, i'll tell you about yesterday and today yeah !
first yesterday after schoo,l like usually i do in wenesday, violin lesson ! and after that me and my mom went to itcbsd to cut my hair. andandandand me& my brother joined celebrity fitness club ohyeah soooooooooooooooo happy. after that went home. and watched television and sleep.

and now today, morning woke up at8 a.m, and then ate breakfast and watched mom at sixteen, the movie was sooo amazing. telling bout "do not have sex before you marry. because the risk is so dangerious ! " and there is a quote too "romeo&juliet was so young, but they're love was pure. and juliet, now that she's pregnant. but romeo is already dead, but he's not dead just sleep. and juliet was sooo depress, that she know she doesn't get love from romeo again. and feel like no reason for live. " i know what's juliet feel . and i know when love leave us. it feel hurt,pain,sick, more then toothache ofcourse but there's another reason to keep alive. so don't be so depress when someone leave you ! we can forget him/her even that soooooooo hard to do it. but i believe that we can !
so i'll show you my new hair cut later ya ! see ya

listening to : taylor swift - forever & laways